excerpt

from my first college paper.

"Finally, the thing I most look forward to as an experience here at UTD is the transformation
of me. After years of near-isolation and aloneness, I am quite interested in how the forced
meeting of people and definite group work will change me. I have never been a very social person
(though I am decent at faking it), and I see people all around me happy in their groups. I’ve
never been that way, but when I hang out with a few friends I am content. Generally, though, up
to this point I’ve avoided bigger groups. I’ve done this because I’ve never seen the pull of
being in such a large group. It doesn’t seem like you can really pay attention to all the people
or pick out all the details and complexities of one person, defeating the purpose of hanging out
in my opinion. Although, my guess on the psychology behind it is that you never see the “bad” of
each person when in plurality, as each person tries not to be the proverbial “party pooper” and
be angry or upset in a time of hang out that everyone shares, as doing so would be a waste of
everyone’s time, except possibly the person angry. I believe it tends to work rather well as
people focus on the good versus the bad.

Also worth noting: the second thing to focus on here at campus is a psychology I’ve been
developing that I call “Human Control.” With a wealth of “test subjects,” so to speak, I will be
able to experiment with ideas I’ve read about in general psychology classes such as inception
and persuasion. The difference here is how I will be going about these ideas. I want to know if
people will react subconsciously to images they’ve seen before, humanistic or not. An example
would include invoking the subject’s memory in a pleasant manner in order to force a certain
reaction. Specifics are not exactly necessary, I’m certain one could come up with the uses of
this particular ability. "


the rest is insignificant.