I didn't sleep a wink, and I think this is due to the drugs (pain meds mostly). Not only do they seriously dehydrate you, they make it impossible to shut your brain up. I literally spent the entire night with Starcraft II strategies pouring forth. Now, this isn't bad, I played a Free-for-all and beat my brother, my roommate, and a computer at the same time, but it definitely has it's downsides.
I am never hungry. I literally feel no need to eat anything, except drink tons of water to counteract the ridiculous thirst brought by the pain meds. However, that's quite the vicious circle; I have to use the restroom all the time. This seems pretty straight forward, but not to somebody who has to sit in a chair all day long. I cannot walk when I am not on meds (it simply hurts too much) and must scoot backwards on the ground by using a combination of my backside and my frustrated fists. If I do not resort to this (highly embarrassing) method of travel, I am stuck IMPOSING on somebody else, either a parent or my brother, and I absolutely loath people who impose on others, even in times of disability like now.
I really don't feel much fear (or much of anything right now) but I still do not know what my feet look like, and that is the one twinge of fear I've got right now. After the procedure yesterday, my feet were bandaged and that was that; the doctor said I couldn't take the bandages off, even to shower. (For bathing purposes, he said to just put plastic bags over them.)
I really miss being able to walk around and just get up and grab things (i.e.: the remote or water or anything really). Hope this is worth it.
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