trying to find myself again

this is scary. i'm trying to find something that i've never found or even seen but i'm still looking! i don't really have a goal but i'm ok, because i have people. is it wrong that i'm doing something about PEOPLE and looking for a new way to exist around the people that could reinvent me? break is going to be hell. i can only half imagine her face and i REALLY want to know what else is in her head. i hate more than anything, anything in the world, to not be able to remember a face, especially one i don't want to forget. time to strain my mental capacity in trying to remember -_-