i have nothing left

no friends to confide in, nothing secretive to keep from the world, no stick to measure my (insignificant?) progress. i am alone in a world which is unfamiliar and foreign and scary. i don't know where to go or what to do, and the life support is in short supply. it's so frightening to see everything change around me, and have nothing to go on, no guide to follow. this is the territory where Josh Waitzkin thrives. i wonder if i can do it too. maybe this will be my final test, to see if i can change with the times. beyond that, nothing will matter, because i can adapt to it. kind of a... final exam. too bad it's lifelong. no rest σ_σ