and i don't even know what it is, yet it pisses me off to think i'm missing something. sad but the truth. i'm being selfish about this, don't get me wrong, i'm mad about myself not being all-inclusive, and not mad about losing you. i'm just still being the same old undeveloped person that everyone is used to pushing around and calling useless and "needs improvement" and stuff.
only thing to do to get rid of my negative energy is turn it into workout energy or whatever. really hard to do when your dad consistently gets you up at 8-9 every fucking morning to do this project or that. really makes the idea of actually taking a long run and working yourself out for a good half hour pretty unattractive.
also: getting sick of my manager bitching and throwing a fit and being a little perfectionist for his company's image. guess is better anyways, get over it. other than that the job isn't too bad, except for the shitty pay, which i could find virtually anywhere else.
soccer is also annoying, with people joining last minute. get your shit straight, play for the team or don't play, i'm not here to waste my time and "have fun." i want to win. it's not a "oh, whatever, no big deal that we lost." i paid money for this shit. let's get better and understand the game and go WIN some games, and save your gf for after the practice or whatever.
so glad my blog has turned into a negative outlet for me. great use of my recordable thought website. time for bed and to start the same shit up for tomorrow. service industry, nice.
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