a bit worrying

that i do not have enough money. it's going to be tight until my first pay check, and i fucking hate that feeling. i wish it would go away... i hate the discomfort of having to borrow things. sure, it probably sucks to work at ihop for a night shift or whatever, but at least you have money to pay for things, and go out with friends and stuff. i had a job, but gave it up to go to college. college drains all money.

i have $30 in front of me, and tomorrow i have to pay for an oil change: there goes $20. with the last ten i need gas: news flash dad, that is not enough for a tank of gas. i really don't know what to say to my friends when they realize that i've been trying to organize a good indoor soccer team with NO money. i have good music taste, soccer skills, a decent set of friends that aren't really all that bad if you don't rely on them too much, a good computer, a very nice mouse, a roof , food and a bed, but NO money. funny how you can be that screwed with just one ingredient missing. i hate, absolutely hate people who bitch about it, but now i'm really starting to see why people do it; they need a way out, and now i'm in the same boat. it's a simple problem, but has no easy, quick fix solutions beyond traps such as loans or whatever. it's so annoying. you grow up a proper boy, right manners and all that good shit, and you end up poor. on the other hand, your rich frisco school mates that you know will never experience this in their lives are rude S.O.B.s that couldn't be nice when something bad happened if their lives depended on it.

also: why do we need girls? i just need more ladder games. that's all i need, really. tomorrow is going to be hella fun paying 8 dollars to get just enough gas to get me to the honda dealer and then have JUST enough to pay for a fucking oil change. awesome. between the teaser cash from my parents and the fact that they can rend my bank account for as much as they want and then not pay me back (on the grounds of "i can't right now.") is a great feeling to return to. i also need to confirm that i've been put into proper classes for next year, and i've also been given the chore of moving my stuff from college out of the garage. some of it is furniture; i don't know where to put it! quit being lazy and do it yourself, if you want it moved so bad.

people to hang out with this summer (that would be worth my time and MONEY):

-hailey
-kyle
-clinton
-paulina? not sure, that'd be great but not sure.

not too many more. unrelated: would like to increase my typing speed to day9 levels: i think the secret is just knowing what you're going to say next.