"There are always winners and losers in games. But there are no winners in breakups. Mutually letting go of their hands, each side giving up on each other, perhaps that is why both become losers." --- Lim Yo Wan :D
gogo terran.
Monday, February 21, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
it seems as though
the teacher is just as much to blame for the success of a student as the student is. without direction, there is no progress.
in unrelated news, i think if they had a guys section of victoria's secret, it would definitely sell a lot. :P
that is all.
in unrelated news, i think if they had a guys section of victoria's secret, it would definitely sell a lot. :P
that is all.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
just a regular
rockin' entry tonight on this lovely snow day, the first of two that create a midweek weekend for north texas.
just eleven days till i turn ugly for a year. what a weird number, 19. like i always say; 18 is cool. 20 is cool. 21 = awesome. but 19... just awkward. it's a huge PRIME number. gross. i have no idea what anybody could possibly getting me, but i hope it's awesome and something i never thought of... that would definitely be a change.
i want a motorcycle. it would be so fun to not have to fight traffic and also be able to slip between lanes, telling the cop that it's legal in thailand. (it's true, you can do that in thailand.) my dad says it will drastically shorten my life span, but that's kinda what i was aiming for. i don't really want to be a guru. if i die tragically, that wouldn't be so bad. but in between (break a leg, paralyzed) doesn't cut it. all or nothing. all-in or expand. end it or keep going just as strong.
one more thing before i begin laddering: i really want to know more about that elusive group of people who have no proper name. these people own everything around them, they're nicknamed "it" people, or maybe are called "charismatic." how do i find that quality?
just eleven days till i turn ugly for a year. what a weird number, 19. like i always say; 18 is cool. 20 is cool. 21 = awesome. but 19... just awkward. it's a huge PRIME number. gross. i have no idea what anybody could possibly getting me, but i hope it's awesome and something i never thought of... that would definitely be a change.
i want a motorcycle. it would be so fun to not have to fight traffic and also be able to slip between lanes, telling the cop that it's legal in thailand. (it's true, you can do that in thailand.) my dad says it will drastically shorten my life span, but that's kinda what i was aiming for. i don't really want to be a guru. if i die tragically, that wouldn't be so bad. but in between (break a leg, paralyzed) doesn't cut it. all or nothing. all-in or expand. end it or keep going just as strong.
one more thing before i begin laddering: i really want to know more about that elusive group of people who have no proper name. these people own everything around them, they're nicknamed "it" people, or maybe are called "charismatic." how do i find that quality?
Monday, January 31, 2011
something is wrong
i just blogged and i'm back for more. second entry within 30 minutes or less. probably less.
idk what the hell i'm even going to write about: there's probably nothing left of BRILLIANCE at 12:32AM on a monday. i have a weird feeling like life is out to get me, and i just need to slip once to get killed. not killed in a death sense, but a lose-everything-and-everyone sense.
maybe that slip is me just raging at the world and say all of you are retarded for making my life harder than it needs to be.
once i divined that the strongest are the ones that can hold it in the best and the longest. you know, all the frustration and hatred for everyone. is it just me, or does everyone out there hate everyone else secretly too? idk.
i need to get the hell off. good night richardson. good night battle.net.
idk what the hell i'm even going to write about: there's probably nothing left of BRILLIANCE at 12:32AM on a monday. i have a weird feeling like life is out to get me, and i just need to slip once to get killed. not killed in a death sense, but a lose-everything-and-everyone sense.
maybe that slip is me just raging at the world and say all of you are retarded for making my life harder than it needs to be.
once i divined that the strongest are the ones that can hold it in the best and the longest. you know, all the frustration and hatred for everyone. is it just me, or does everyone out there hate everyone else secretly too? idk.
i need to get the hell off. good night richardson. good night battle.net.
a jumble
i want to say something about my life, but i don't think i have anything much to say right now. maybe it will come out of me as i type this.
i see lots of people in my life, and all of their respective.... aspects of personality, i think is what i want to say. i'd like to say that i'm a better person now than i was, but i'm not sure. i'm trying to be the best i can be. sounds gay, and probably no word i can say now will change that. on the other hand, i guess i'm not trying to defend that either though.
back to the people around me: i've found someone who is so similar to me, and has found so many of the same interests as me. she lives in a completely different world however, so idk if a connection would ever be established. she has a lot to learn about awkwardness :D if she learns though, awkwardness isn't EVER a problem, because you know what causes it and can kill it pretty much whenever.
back to me being gay (jk, me being a better person): people do stupid shit. i guess what i'm trying to say here is that i'm trying to be more patient after people fuck up so hard that it affects other people around them.
another thing i feel is that i'm just blogging to be blogging...i've nothing else to do but let this storm brew and hope it kills tomorrow's math class. i hate math now: it's so difficult to understand, and i won't get anything out of it really. hopefully i can just PASS it; i've had 2 60%s on quizzes already, and those are the only two quizzes we've had so far this year. ugh. i USED to be a beast at this stuff.
i also just realized how much stuff i had on my ipod... music is amazing :) need new stuff though, and need to redownload itunes.
strangely i think joining a fraternity is the next step if i want to experience what my mystery person is experiencing. idk who to join or who will betray me (probably all of them, or they'll all be fleeting friendships or whatever) but i need to see and take that risk. i think. but doing and saying are two very different things.
i see lots of people in my life, and all of their respective.... aspects of personality, i think is what i want to say. i'd like to say that i'm a better person now than i was, but i'm not sure. i'm trying to be the best i can be. sounds gay, and probably no word i can say now will change that. on the other hand, i guess i'm not trying to defend that either though.
back to the people around me: i've found someone who is so similar to me, and has found so many of the same interests as me. she lives in a completely different world however, so idk if a connection would ever be established. she has a lot to learn about awkwardness :D if she learns though, awkwardness isn't EVER a problem, because you know what causes it and can kill it pretty much whenever.
back to me being gay (jk, me being a better person): people do stupid shit. i guess what i'm trying to say here is that i'm trying to be more patient after people fuck up so hard that it affects other people around them.
another thing i feel is that i'm just blogging to be blogging...i've nothing else to do but let this storm brew and hope it kills tomorrow's math class. i hate math now: it's so difficult to understand, and i won't get anything out of it really. hopefully i can just PASS it; i've had 2 60%s on quizzes already, and those are the only two quizzes we've had so far this year. ugh. i USED to be a beast at this stuff.
i also just realized how much stuff i had on my ipod... music is amazing :) need new stuff though, and need to redownload itunes.
strangely i think joining a fraternity is the next step if i want to experience what my mystery person is experiencing. idk who to join or who will betray me (probably all of them, or they'll all be fleeting friendships or whatever) but i need to see and take that risk. i think. but doing and saying are two very different things.
Monday, January 24, 2011
as i write this,
i wonder if you are the same as the rest, just another glorified, older shelly with different coloured hair. what makes you so different from the rest? you still avoid just like everybody else, and deny existence just like everybody else.
yes, you can follow my wit/jokes, but for how long? how do i know this is worth pursuing?
so far, i've seen the same in my own past, and that makes me so suspicious. i hate being a killjoy, but everyone knows why i am apprehensive.
yes, you can follow my wit/jokes, but for how long? how do i know this is worth pursuing?
so far, i've seen the same in my own past, and that makes me so suspicious. i hate being a killjoy, but everyone knows why i am apprehensive.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
stupidity and immaturity
do not net you rewards, priorities, or special privileges. please know that. yes, this is directed at you.
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