lessons i learned today:

1. prepare for the unexpected. that way, you just expected it, and you'll be golden. 2. to win, you might have to deceive yourself in some way. this can be some motivational music, talking to someone inspirational, watching someone inspirational, or seeing something differently. 3. you are going to MELTDOWN if you keep deceiving yourself. you MUST reload/recharge your mental abilities. trying to keep going on leads to sudden explosions of emotion, something that really cool people never seem to have. (bet you didn't notice that before now :D) 4. just win. it's that simple. find the best way out of the terrible, ugly, downward spiraling, awkward situation you're in, and follow your judgement to the ends of the earth. knowing that you're on the path to the exit should be enough to convince yourself to do whatever you were previously unwilling to do and get out of that bad place in the best shape possible. 5. never lose your cool. this is kind of a combination of the previous four points, but it bears "repeating," because it's so easy to get caught up in the moment. nothing gives a massive advantage like keeping your cool. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i'm tired. i've been running all week (first continuous week in probably........ 2.5 years? that's not good man) and i'm actually going for 2 weeks straight! i might give it a rest day, but i'm not sure. tomorrow is the first indoor game, so i get to use that for running. don't know if i like that or not. going to bed, good night, world who doesn't know i exist yet