paradigm shifter

"You can't emphasize enough how much you need to be a paradigm shifter." --- SaviOr. I think this is absolutely true. You can never see the other side without seeing it through somebody else or experiencing it yourself, and that information is beyond valuable. I will have the last laugh in the grownup world, and my willpower is something to be feared. I'll do it in style, and make it look easy. Then I'll come back and have my laugh. Until then, I've got to take dead aim at what I need to accomplish: having a perfect GPA, or as close as I can get it. After I repay my parents, start creating my perfect little hideaway away from everyone, where I live a classy but quiet life. I don't want anything but me and things to think about, I may even skip on having somebody to share it with, but that's down the road and I can comfortably wait to make that decision. Since there is no real accomplishment in life, I will make my own. They will be completely defined by me, and I will be the final judge of my character, with no exceptions. I still wonder what good an Audi R8 is without friends?

some realizations

Everyone lies at least once. Time is relative to your ability to track it. It's better to live for yourself and die alone rather than live for others and die amongst them On the same token, it's better to be not happy and alone compared to unhappy with someone. The more ability you have, the less effort you will put forth. No fact is unquestionable Do what you will because no one knows what will be.

the truth?

you know what the truth is? there really isn't anybody good out there. nobody. not one person.

reactionary

this is what i have to be in order to finish this semester. this means finding my old ways, doing all homework instantly, and going to every single help session (ok, that's not reactionary) available to me. i never used to go to these sessions. i never needed them until the teachers stopped caring about how much the students learned. all the reviews, extra worksheets, and reiterations i thought were stupid were actually helping. (never thought I'd say this.) now that i'm on my own, i almost never do the entire homework. just skimming over it isn't enough, no matter how boring it is. it needs to be done so that all the weird problems (that will be inevitably and stupidly placed on the exams) can be taken care of. i DON'T feel like this is fair, i DON'T think i deserve this sort of dire consequence, but the bottom line is that i have to cooperate, for the simple reason that they outnumber me. i cannot become the majority. the most logical or brilliant solution is never the one most thought of, and therefore i will have to simply bite my tongue for this semester and become who i was: an unquestioning, hard-working, single-minded person with no social life. sounds fun. welcome to college.

lesson number one when dealing with parents:

NEVER tell them anything that could come back to bite you later. they will always, without fail, bring it up later. doesn't matter the situation, you're going to be in trouble.

better to just keep it inside. the strongest always can.

season three: my last chance before school

to get to master's league.

also, good people have fallen off the face of the planet (no pun intended for what i'm about to say.). facebook is the new immature myspace. all the high school kids are on it: google+ is now the new facebook, but for adults. please, if you are immature, do not add me on plus. it's my turn to be choosy, and you will have no say in what i do.

soon i think i will delete my facebook in favor of class and unlimited social interaction, versus choosy pieces of shit that think they are the best in what they do and don't do.

reikai hwaiting :D

i'm reading horror stuff

and it doesn't phase me near as bad as the first time. idk why. however, i like how everything is a big question mark, and it's up to you to unlock each disturbing image with your mind, everything is up to the user. idk why i like horror stories, and someone will probably find it messed up that i'm writing something like this, so to-the-point, but i enjoy interesting stories :)

PTR is up :D time to go test :))) new maps and such.