my parents are part of the masses. today, after a stupid guilt trip nearly causing me to leave the house and go back to my apartment, i come downstairs to see my parents watching reality TV.i can't believe it. i really thought i came from a better set of intellectuals than this. they probably bandwagon voted for obama too.
i initially thought they did it on some upper class logic that i wouldn't understand, but now that "logic" is under suspicion after i see my mom start to get teary over some guy donating money to "worthy" souls. seriously, the show was called "secret millionaire" and it was a guy who met people and donated 40K or something depending on if these good people were worth it or not.... it was almost as if he decided to play god or something.
the second show was "undercover boss," where a boss would go and inspect his or her workers, and decide whether they were worthy or not for promotions and stuff. the show really displayed discrepancies about the approaches people took to get to their means.
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yeah, i'm less pissed now. i want to play some starcraft :D i've been watching streams for a couple hours (i think?) and no terran games between ROOT and EG :/ so i'll have to play some of my own. chao
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
ONE DAY.
one day i'll find that girl. i don't pretend to know what she looks like but it's there; the concept of who she is. maybe i already know her, maybe she doesn't exist except for in bits of different people. maybe i'm chasing a ghost but i guess... the bottom line is i'm still chasing. glgl to me.
also: today has been a great day! played with pajela, trashed the same noob toss twice in a row on the ladder, and got a lot of stuff done like extra papers and extra credit stuff. got some good midterm grades, need to check for math and hope it's not horrible.
need to download more music and give kyle his birthday present.. i think it's still in the car??? idk, i'll check in a second. hailey's gone until may ish? maybe she can see us wreck in the playoffs. i wish she could see the game with me against ben but probably not.... hope kyle comes to watch :D i need to run today, maybe i'll do it later.
(yep, i have transitioned back into using this as a thought board.)
can't wait for walmart tonight!! hope kyle can go... clinton cannot wait any longer for food haha xD and also i hate not having snacks around here :P lol
alright, ttyl.... blog, and whoever reads this shit. probably no one :P
also: today has been a great day! played with pajela, trashed the same noob toss twice in a row on the ladder, and got a lot of stuff done like extra papers and extra credit stuff. got some good midterm grades, need to check for math and hope it's not horrible.
need to download more music and give kyle his birthday present.. i think it's still in the car??? idk, i'll check in a second. hailey's gone until may ish? maybe she can see us wreck in the playoffs. i wish she could see the game with me against ben but probably not.... hope kyle comes to watch :D i need to run today, maybe i'll do it later.
(yep, i have transitioned back into using this as a thought board.)
can't wait for walmart tonight!! hope kyle can go... clinton cannot wait any longer for food haha xD and also i hate not having snacks around here :P lol
alright, ttyl.... blog, and whoever reads this shit. probably no one :P
Thursday, March 3, 2011
glad to be embarrassed
today my body temperature soared to sweating temperatures in my hoodie as i asked a stupid question in math class. i'm glad that i still have the ability to be embarrassed as i do something badly in the educational world. i need to keep pushing. dead aim. :)
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
this challenge
is freaking tough.
i have to keep a scholarship. the problem with that is the discrepancy in class difficulty, and the disproportionate amount of seemingly random free time i have at my disposal. getting good grades isn't easy when you don't exactly have a super set schedule. also; the english teacher is super stupid, just like the last one. we need the next byroad or bentley teaching in college, we don't need some dumb homeless fat lady they picked up off of the street.
i need to meet with brian vaughn soon (academic advisor) to check in. i hope he has some good news for me.
this is the only source of my stress, and is quite unfair to be honest. i'm doing everything right (to the best of my ability) and it still isn't enough.
i have to keep a scholarship. the problem with that is the discrepancy in class difficulty, and the disproportionate amount of seemingly random free time i have at my disposal. getting good grades isn't easy when you don't exactly have a super set schedule. also; the english teacher is super stupid, just like the last one. we need the next byroad or bentley teaching in college, we don't need some dumb homeless fat lady they picked up off of the street.
i need to meet with brian vaughn soon (academic advisor) to check in. i hope he has some good news for me.
this is the only source of my stress, and is quite unfair to be honest. i'm doing everything right (to the best of my ability) and it still isn't enough.
Monday, February 21, 2011
break ups.. :)
"There are always winners and losers in games. But there are no winners in breakups. Mutually letting go of their hands, each side giving up on each other, perhaps that is why both become losers." --- Lim Yo Wan :D
gogo terran.
gogo terran.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
it seems as though
the teacher is just as much to blame for the success of a student as the student is. without direction, there is no progress.
in unrelated news, i think if they had a guys section of victoria's secret, it would definitely sell a lot. :P
that is all.
in unrelated news, i think if they had a guys section of victoria's secret, it would definitely sell a lot. :P
that is all.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
just a regular
rockin' entry tonight on this lovely snow day, the first of two that create a midweek weekend for north texas.
just eleven days till i turn ugly for a year. what a weird number, 19. like i always say; 18 is cool. 20 is cool. 21 = awesome. but 19... just awkward. it's a huge PRIME number. gross. i have no idea what anybody could possibly getting me, but i hope it's awesome and something i never thought of... that would definitely be a change.
i want a motorcycle. it would be so fun to not have to fight traffic and also be able to slip between lanes, telling the cop that it's legal in thailand. (it's true, you can do that in thailand.) my dad says it will drastically shorten my life span, but that's kinda what i was aiming for. i don't really want to be a guru. if i die tragically, that wouldn't be so bad. but in between (break a leg, paralyzed) doesn't cut it. all or nothing. all-in or expand. end it or keep going just as strong.
one more thing before i begin laddering: i really want to know more about that elusive group of people who have no proper name. these people own everything around them, they're nicknamed "it" people, or maybe are called "charismatic." how do i find that quality?
just eleven days till i turn ugly for a year. what a weird number, 19. like i always say; 18 is cool. 20 is cool. 21 = awesome. but 19... just awkward. it's a huge PRIME number. gross. i have no idea what anybody could possibly getting me, but i hope it's awesome and something i never thought of... that would definitely be a change.
i want a motorcycle. it would be so fun to not have to fight traffic and also be able to slip between lanes, telling the cop that it's legal in thailand. (it's true, you can do that in thailand.) my dad says it will drastically shorten my life span, but that's kinda what i was aiming for. i don't really want to be a guru. if i die tragically, that wouldn't be so bad. but in between (break a leg, paralyzed) doesn't cut it. all or nothing. all-in or expand. end it or keep going just as strong.
one more thing before i begin laddering: i really want to know more about that elusive group of people who have no proper name. these people own everything around them, they're nicknamed "it" people, or maybe are called "charismatic." how do i find that quality?
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