another sickening day

of people telling me that they like what i'm doing, and that i should keep it up. i want to do nothing of the sort, and start doing what I want to do. i absolutely hate wasting my time for 13 cents a minute and dragging my youth on in circles, wasting it doing what is THOUGHT to be right. i have absolute respect for LastShadow, who is YOUNGER than i am and has made it full time in a pro house in korea. i think i would definitely miss people here, but..... i'd be able to do what i want. that's so important. i want to live, i don't want to be "accepted" or thought of as "correct." if that happens, cool, but that isn't my goal. i want to be happy and i can't do that wasting time. YOLO is actually appropriate here. wow. going to definitely ask for the number of the next girl that strikes me as interesting/beautiful/funny. k, going to bed to obediently and willing waste 8 hours of my life tomorrow. #LivingTheAmericanDream