the truth?

you know what the truth is? there really isn't anybody good out there. nobody. not one person.

reactionary

this is what i have to be in order to finish this semester. this means finding my old ways, doing all homework instantly, and going to every single help session (ok, that's not reactionary) available to me. i never used to go to these sessions. i never needed them until the teachers stopped caring about how much the students learned. all the reviews, extra worksheets, and reiterations i thought were stupid were actually helping. (never thought I'd say this.) now that i'm on my own, i almost never do the entire homework. just skimming over it isn't enough, no matter how boring it is. it needs to be done so that all the weird problems (that will be inevitably and stupidly placed on the exams) can be taken care of. i DON'T feel like this is fair, i DON'T think i deserve this sort of dire consequence, but the bottom line is that i have to cooperate, for the simple reason that they outnumber me. i cannot become the majority. the most logical or brilliant solution is never the one most thought of, and therefore i will have to simply bite my tongue for this semester and become who i was: an unquestioning, hard-working, single-minded person with no social life. sounds fun. welcome to college.

lesson number one when dealing with parents:

NEVER tell them anything that could come back to bite you later. they will always, without fail, bring it up later. doesn't matter the situation, you're going to be in trouble.

better to just keep it inside. the strongest always can.